Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I'm Back!

I know it's been a really long time since I last blogged. A "couple of weeks" turned into months, and I have to say, it was kind of nice. I wish I had kept up with the personal side of the blog for the sake of keeping memories, but I just didn't feel up to it until April.

For those who don't know me personally, the reason for my hiatus was that I was pregnant!

John and I found out on New Year's Day, and I started to feel ill shortly thereafter. I have a rough time the first 4-5 months of pregnancy. I will spare everyone details. The short story is that I get very sick, tired, and lose all passions-- which includes blogging and everything that is worth blogging about. I went 4 months without using our camera!

While being gone, I re-evaluated my online life and realized that being connected to my computer so much was not a good thing. I don't anticipate blogging as frequently as before, but I would still love to share things that are going on around here.

To be honest, I wrote all of that above a couple of months ago when I was still pregnant. I've been meaning to get back into blogging for months now, but I wanted the first post to be a good, picture-filled summary of what happened during that lost time. It was hanging over my head to the point of blogging paralysis.

This morning, I read the following on the blog Not Without Salt:
“At its root, perfectionism isn’t really about a deep love of being meticulous. It’s about fear. Fear of making a mistake. Fear of disappointing others. Fear of failure. Fear of success.”― Michael Law
In the book of Ecclesiastes it talks about the problem of waiting on the perfect moment. If I wait until I’ve crafted the perfect blog post I will never hit “publish”. If I wait until I’m completely satisfied with my images I will never let them be seen. If I wait to share my food until it’s perfectly seasoned then I will never have the joy of sitting around the table with friends.  
Finally, I've realized that I just need to pick up with life where it is now and not try to fill in the gaps. Perhaps over time I'll do a few flash backs to what went on over the last 10 months.

For now, I'll leave you with a couple of photos of our new family of four.



  1. Congrats on your newest blessing and welcome back! I too have taken a blogging break but am starting to regroup and start anew.

  2. I'm glad you're back. Your blog brings me and others joy, but ultimately it's for you and your family of four.

  3. Awwww, congratulations! I was wondering about you not too long ago! I completely understand not blogging as much - I've been stepping back from it for a while now and it feels very nice. It will be nice to see you around a little bit though :)

  4. Awesome post Nicole...such good words of perspective. Just caught up on all the new updates on your family...they are so beautiful. Blessings to you all!

    1. Thanks, Tash. We miss you up here! Glad that so much is going well for y'all, and that you're where you're supposed to be.

  5. So honest Nicole. Thanks for that poem/reflection on perfectionism and fear. As a recovering perfectionist I'd have to say that fear is the underlying issue that holds us captive between perfection and paralysis. I praise God for Tasha, marriage, kids, etc for teaching me to just let go. All is well in Gods eyes!

  6. Great to see your family is growing! i took an unintentional long blogging break too.. its funny how you reevaluate things when you haven't done it in a while.. i keep going back and forth as to if i should start back up again... and that quote you shared... spoke volumes to me right now!! thanks for your wisdom.. and welcome back!


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